kloolisspryncess

*UnDeCiDeD fEeLiNgZ*
2004-01-17 03:11:49 (UTC)

*TeArS*

01.16.03 10:05 PM

~tears are the words the heart can't say~

have u ever suddenly felt the need to cry and not stop
until you can't cry anymore? until your eyes burn from the
salty tears and your head pounds with a headache that
won't go away? until you're too tired to move and don't
want to do anything? and you're totally alone and no one
seems to care about you?

yeah.. that's how i feel right now. i don't know why. i've
spent the entire day alone. i haven't talked to my friends
*well, angela for like 5 minutes* and i haven't talked to
my boyfriend.
my DAD even noticed that i was upset. he was like "whats
wrong? what, did JR break up with you? did i do something
and kill your dog?" *that last part was great b.c both
dogs were right there when he said that*
i was like, "no.."
i don't know why i feel this bad. i don't know why and
that kind of scares me. i've never had this happen before.
i don't like it at all.
and i can't cry. not even one tear. because then someone
is going to notice and i'll never live it down. they will
harrass me over and over until i break down and cry again.
so i have to hold everything in. and that's never good.

xoTay




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