babybritt_4life

My Crazy Mixed Up World * A Girl In Love
2004-01-16 01:47:50 (UTC)

thoughts about zach

so right now many changes are going on. as of right now
there is no zach and brittany relationship. well at least
in a romantic way. and you know i'm okay with that. it
seems really strange to say that. i mean he told me that
he cares for me and he loves me but he is not in love with
me. the thing is i kinda have been feeling the same way. i
just don't think i every wanted to here the words being
spoken. i also know that i do love zach but i think for
some of the time i was confusing my loving zach for being
IN love with zach. which just shows that maybe i'm to
young to be deciding who i am in love with and who i want
to spend the rest of my life with. i mean if that love
comes then it comes but i can't try to make it stay if its
not ment to be. i'm not saying that there wasn't something
between zach and me. if its possible to be in love with
someone and fall out of love with someone but yet still
love them then thats what i am with him. if that makes
any sense at all. i also think that there has been a lot
of change going on. and i don't really mean with zach. i
mean with me. i'm sure zach as changed but thats not what
i'm saying. what i'm saying is that how i am and how i
look at life has changed. how i see things and how i react
to things have change. to tell you the truth i can thank
zach for a lot of it. meeting him has really changed me.
for the good. he has made me think about things
differently. thats a really good thing. i needed that. i
needed it a lot. i think before i met zach i was headed
down a road that would have got me killed. thats the
truth. i was getting my self into things that a girl my
age shouldn't be messing with. i just really love him. he
is one of my best friends and he means a lot to me. so we
may not be in love but i still don't want to lose him!

love britty




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