psychomagnet

somewhere there is always someone who loves you.

everyone has the same thing to say in different words. and
these are people who all know me, they all know how i am
and how i was. but i dont believe them.

i wish i could believe everything people say. i wish i
could fight on my own side instead of against myself. i
wish i could not only realize reality but accept it and
move on as well. i wish i could be certain for once about
something, anything, and understand it completely. i wish
i could show people how much they mean to me before its too
late.

"adrienne... i wish i could stay. she is unhappy. i dont
think i help much, there isnt anything i can fix for her.
but as she said at least its an excuse to stay away from
him. i dont want to see her go back to him. i wish i could
stay and take care of her. but i cant, and shed never let
me either. she will choose her own course... and caroline
is not good enough."