Dinachka82

Diana
2004-01-14 22:03:11 (UTC)

Journal

SO FOR MY WRITING CLASS WE NEED TO KEEP A JOURNAL, SO I'LL
SHARE MY JOURNAL ENTRIES WITH YOU GUYS.


Every time I remember I’m back at school a cold chill
rushes over me and I just want to get under my blanket and
stay there forever! You see, the fact that I have classes
is not what’s so horrible, it’s the fact that I am back at
State College. I hated it last semester, and it’s not
going to get better this semester. It’s actually has
gotten worse, which I really did not think could happen.
Moving up here should have been the best time of my life,
instead it’s treacherous. Let me explain. I am very close
to my family, which makes it hard being so far away. I am
a huge social butterfly, but for some reason making
friends at home is a lot easier. Also, I think the older
you get, the tougher it is to make friends, at least any
close ones. So anyway, I don’t have many friends up here,
which wasn’t that bad last semester since my boyfriend was
up here. He kept me sane. Now he is gone doing an
internship in Lehigh Valley, so he’s back at home. I am
happy for him but at the same time my selfishness comes
through and I really wish he was here. I think I just got
too dependent on people. I never used to be. I can
honestly admit that I am really dependent on him. I mean,
I just always want to be around him, which is really not
that healthy for either of us. Oh well, it should be
better for both of us. Anyway it’s really coming down
outside, the snow has covered everything, its really
sticking. It’s not even 5pm yet and my lights are already
on, it’s so dark and gloomy. One thing I love about snow,
is how peaceful it makes me feel. If I just sit there and
watch it, I feel so pure. I’m not sure why. It doesn’t
make noise, it just falls gently, and every snowflake
perfectly falls into place, like it has a place. It’s
strange. Anyway, I just looked out the window and got
totally of track. The snow makes me think of Kris anyway.
Whew! Enough about my misery at State College for the day.
I’m sure there is plenty more to come.




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