Booshwa

All That I Am
2004-01-11 03:06:33 (UTC)

Never Anything Less Than Beautiful

"Beauty isn't in the face...Beauty is a light in the heart"
- Khalil Gibran

Last night I told Nick that I didn't want to take it any
further with him and I still feel like a bastard. Like I
said in my last entry, I don't think it was that I was in
to Nick as much as I was into being held, being kissed,
and knowing that someone thought I was beautiful and sexy.
He pleaded with me though to give it a chance and to take
a chance but I stuck to my guns. I said it'd be best not
to take it any further because I thought we'd just end up
hurting each other because we want and expect different
things in a relationship. I feel terrible only because I
could hear how disappointed and sad he was and I know he
expected this to go further. He said he's never felt so
comfortable around someone before in such a short time and
that he loved my little nuances...ok getting emotional.
Well, that was that...I hope I didn't make a mistake and
miss out on something fabulous. He's such a great guy, I
just didn't think we were a good match...personality wise.
I hope he does find someone that'll love him for who he is
because he's awesome and such a beautiful guy...I just
couldn't love him the way he wanted...and in the long run
I couldn't see myself being happy with him.




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