supersara

Best Left Unspoken
2004-01-10 19:35:41 (UTC)

Frustrated And Ignored

I feel like I'm trapped. I really want to talk to
Brittaney, but noooooo I can't get through. I'm home alone
with my little brother right now. He's five years younger
than me and he will never understand me. The only words
that I ever get out of him are "what?" and "i don't know!"
and I just want to wring his neck. My sister is seven
years older than me and wants nothing to do with me or
Mitch (my little bro) she's never around when I REALLY
need an older sister to help a younger sister (meaning
me). My parents expect me to be perfect. I remember last
year I got my grade card in the mail and showed it to my
parents and I had a C in Science and a C in Language Arts
and then they started saying a whole bunch of stuff about
how I'm Kristen (my sister) all over again and that I'm
goin to ruin my college career before it starts and that
we aren't made of money so to go I have to keep my grades
up to get a good scholarship. Well what I wanted to say to
them was "OH MY GOD THEY ARE JUST C'S IT'S NOT LIKE I
FAILED ANYTHING SO FUCK YOU" but instead I just ripped the
grade card out of their hands and hid it from everyone.
memories like this are best left hidden from my parents
becuase they will tell me the same thing again. And dammit
I really need to talk to Brittaney. Can no one understand
that???
SuperSara(feeling not so Super)




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