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ESPO'S LIFE
2004-01-10 08:10:41 (UTC)

January 10, 2004 A Change

Tonight i decided not to not to take Bloomingdales test in
the morning. I just dont feel like i will get anything out
of it in the future and there will be alot of other chances
in the next couple of months ill just take my time and make
sure, i make the right decision. Tonight at work was hell
i just felt sluggish all night i guess i gotta get back in
the weight room this week and get going hard core i gotta
trim some fat off my waist line i just feel uncomfortable
with it. Plus i want to be in better shape than what i am
in now i feel better about it in the morning. Also i want
to join up at Siparis gym i feel it is the best for me ill
get back some of my competiveness and also get my blood
going agian, i miss kicking the crap out of some one and i
miss the fight i used to go through for 14 years i need to
do something to get my edge back i feel i am going flat and
need a bigger push back to what i feel is right.

Other things on my mind well of corse are Monica. I
thought alot about her last night when i got home i just
felt good thinking about the differences that have already
happened to me this year. It feels good for once. But i
gotta spend some time with the boys this weekend i havent
seen them since new years i gotta get them together and
have a boys night out.

A big change happens tomorrow as well. My bro moves out
tomorrow to his new house. Im happy and sad at the same
time. I am so proud he is moving on in life and is getting
his start of a new home with him and ashley. But i am
losing my most trusted person and my best friend. Its
rough to think this but its gonna be different to see him
gone and tought at times but i can always go see him when i
get a chance to. None the less its a great thing to see
him accomplish this and get his home ready to go. He knows
where his real home is back on shoreline and im sure ill
see him enough untill my turn comes to move on. Im just
happy to see things working out.

Well its 2:09 AM and its been a long day at work and i got
a long week ahead of me but a anticipated weekend up
ahead. The mood for me is Happy and I got a proud smile on
my face for my bro.




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