dragon_amor

Kami
2004-01-09 07:42:52 (UTC)

Is it really too much to ask?

Is it really too much to ask that someone you love love
you back?

Is it really too much to ask that someone you love show
interest or concern for your feellings at all instead of
being brushed off?

Should it hurt is someone you lose sleep over every night
refuse to lose any for you?

I feel like it is expected of me to watch the life of the
person most important to me unfold into someone else's.
I feel like I'm an asshole if I don't agree to watch her
love someonee else.

Let's just forget about it how I feel.

How can I think yuo care about me if you'd kiss someone
else?

How can I not think you are saying goodbye if you fuck
someone else?

How can I think I have a chance if you seek out other guys
for dates?

How can I think I matter if you can't even take a few
minutes to convince me I matter?

At the time when I tell you how much I love you and how
much I care about you and how much I'm hurting - you don't
seem to try to relate, you don't seem to try to show
concern. You just seem to state that there is an extent
to which you care, and beyond that, it is to be understood
that any blame that might ever be identified for us not
talking shall fall on me.

Well, maybe I was looking for a hug?

Would it be too much to ask?