Keloryn_Baggins

What makes me tick
2004-01-07 19:19:50 (UTC)

I do admire my dad.

I often say how much I totally and utterly loathe my
father. And at the moment, I'm sure I do, but then, at
other times, I hate myself for thinking or saying things.
I mean, he's my father. I cant hate him. He's never done a
bad thing to me, my mom or anyone. Sure, there've been
huge fights, at times he can be an asshole, but, thats how
it is in any family. Any and every family.
My dad is a very religious person. He keeps journals about
his faith, his thoughts and all that kind of stuff... A
diary, I guess. I have to admit, that I do read it when I
see it, which is very rare. And even if I do I only read a
page or two. And, I admire him so much for his faith in
his religion. He believes it so strongly. He has so much
to say, he just cant say it to my mom, and most certaintly
not me.
And, I sort of feel sorry for him, not having anyone who
he can talk to. I'm sure if I were to ever say that to him
he'd say "I dont need anyone". But, I think everyone sort
of needs someone to talk to. And not your God, not a God
that you can see, that you cant touch, that you cant come
in contact to. A real, live person.
Oh well... G'bye.




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