Aa-chan

Diary of a Deranged Fangirl
2004-01-07 14:29:31 (UTC)

Thar She Blows

I really couldn't come up with a better title for today so
thus is why this is called Thar She Blows. Well today is
my last full day here in the magnificent ghetto trap that
is Philly. Tomorrow I go back to Dover to face my
destiny. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow and
really I'm tired of worrying about it.

I tried to call home yesterday, but either he was doing
something and was away from the phone or he didn't feel
like talking to me. Either way is fine with me. I'm just
so tired of feeling guilty for shit that I haven't done
and I know you all are tired of reading about it. I just
wish this was over. That we duke it out or whatever,
kiss, make up, and go back to the same mayhem it was
before all this bs started.

I've admitted my shortcomings. I know my behaivor has
been inappropriate, but outside of taking a polygraph test
to prove my fidelity or having those bozos at Cheaters
follow me around for a few days, there's nothing really I
can do. He's going to believe what he wants to believe
and given how paranoid he is, he's going to believe the
worst.

But, I'm tired of talking about all this. The whole point
of me coming up here was to get away from all the problems
and give the air a chance to clear. So I'm going to stop
worrying about shit that still has more then 24 hours to
happen. Let's start on a new topic.

Yesterday, I went to the mall to try to replace the
Castlevania game that Kristin lost. Not only is that game
damn near impossible to find, but if you do find it, it's
$40?! Used!? If by some stroke of luck you can find it
new it's $10 bucks. What the hell?! I'm going to kill
her. I let her borrow that game and she lost it, claiming
that she gave it back to me.

I swear this here and now; she is never, ever allowed to
borrow anything of mine ever again. She still has my
Utena tape I let her borrow. She lost my copy of Evamon,
which thank God J'aime has the only remaining copy of it.
She never gave me back my Epee Lugui manga. And when I
borrow stuff that belongs to her, she'll nag me about
giving it back to her. But she is never again going to
borrow anything of mine.

Alas, needless to say I didn't get Symphony of the Night.
Maybe one day, I'll go and splurge and get it, but not
right now. I can't justify paying $40 dollars for a used
game.

I also need to replace Resident Evil 2. Claire's disk has
a crack in it and now it won't play. So I need to find
that and replace that too. When I looked up these games
on the net, I was told that the Gamestop in Dover has
them, so I may replace them when I go back home.

Also yesterday I went to rehersal with Mom again. I met
one of the members of the cast. Did you ever meet someone
who was a close talker. Not to have that old Sinfeld joke
going around... But this dude was so close to me when he
introduced himself, I thought he was going to kiss me.
I'm like dude, back up, like three good feet... Keep
going... Keep going.... There we go... Much better.

I can't stand people who talk really close up. There is
no reason why you should be so uncomfortably close if you
need to talk. What's the rule, people need something like
6-12 feet of personal space. 3-6 feet if you are in a
line or something. Abide by those rules people.

In any case, Mom has another rehersal tonight. I haven't
decided if I was going to go with her tonight. What I do
when she's at rehersal is just sit there quietly and play
with my Gameboy, but I realize that looking at the screen
without taking a real break, can result in me getting a
really bad headache. Plus I finished all my games
already. Super Mario Brothers 3 and Castlevania. Oooh,
and I finally got the good ending for Castlevania too. So
having finished all the endings and having no other games
to play, I don't know if I want to go up there tonight or
not. I may just go, considering I may not make it up
there for the show.

As for my morning. A part of me wants to stoak around
South Street. I could really go for going to Quakerhead,
plus I really need to take my butt to the fabric district
to find those silver buttons I need for my Esther
costume. But the lazy, uninspired part of me wants to
stay home in a nice warm bed. Decisions, decisions,
decisions... Eh, I guess I should go to South Street.
What the hell. I went to the mall yesterday and didn't
find anything of interest, maybe there will be something
of interest down there. Plus if I don't find anything I
like, I could always go for the last resort and buy a new
corset. Fetish is down there too.

Well, it's nearly 9:30. I guess I'd better get the ball
rolling.

Woo-hoo: Off to South Street... Maybe...

Barf: Not looking forward to tomorrow.

Current Song: Bob Seager's Shakedown from Beverly Hills
Cop 2 that came on last night, but I didn't get a chance
to hear that song, but it's still funny.




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