Rowan Greene

The Real Diary Of A Made Up Girl
2004-01-06 03:11:26 (UTC)

Waiting

I swear time goes by slower on purpose sometimes. I am
dying for B to come online, I havn't talked to him in days,
and it seems that the minutes crawl by.
I suppose I should take a chill pill, but I really want
to make plans to see him again and all of that. I like him
soooo much and I really want him to like me. I sound like I
am in middle school again for God's sake. It just feels
like it is taking so long to get anywhere and I want to be
in the good happy place now. No patients for this stuff.
Sadly this whole thing is going to drag by I think and it
is doubtful I could talk him into having meaningless sex
until he does form some weighty emotions for me either.
Damn damn damn. I know this wouldn't be half as bad, but
there is all the hormonal crap to deal with too.
So trying to get him out and about with me. SO far no
luck since I can not seem to get a hold of him this week. I
know he likes me and wants to hang out, but he is busy all
the time lately. Drives me crazy because I have all this
time and am ready to go... but nothing to do. We are
supposed to go to North Hampton sometime, but that wont be
until spring most likely. Maybe I can see him next weekend
if I track him down in time. Left an e-mail with him, but
he actually has to come online for that which he has not in
days. Miss him.
With my luck it will probably snow though. It has
everytime i have tried to see him so far.. for that matter
it has been yucky out for all my social plans this year. I
am finding this to be rather annoying since it is always
nice when I have no plans at all.
Hoping he will come on tonight or tomorrow and I can make
plans to see him. I just feel like we aren't going to make
any progress unless he keeps seeing me so the sooner i get
the ball rolling the better. I'll update if anything cool
or sad happens.
~*Rowan*~




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