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Emily Holm
2004-01-06 02:56:20 (UTC)

Happy New Year

Hello again...I was emptying out my folders for my email
account and I came across an old email from where I have
my diary, and I thought I could come in and write another
entry...pretty cool, huh? lol I want to get better and
more efficient at this. Hopefully. Maybe that can be one
of my New Year's Resolutions...if only I believed in them.
lol

Springhill was okay, I was considered a counselor, sort
of, but I was told that I wouldn't be looked to for real
counselorship from the girls in our group as they would to
the adults going with us. Of course, I didn't really care
whether I was a counselor or not, all I cared was that
nate was there with me all weekend, and I enjoyed myself
right up to the time when Nate told me he wasn't having
fun. I felt like crying, because I was the one who invited
him to go, and I felt it was my responsibility to make
sure he was having fun. Well, since we had unseasonably
warm temps this weekend, they closed the tubing hill for
the entire time, and since ice wouldn't stay, we couldn't
have broomball.

So, those were two of THE most popular events during
Springhill camp, and they were cancelled. We were all
bummed. But there was still horseback riding, which
pleased me, and they subsituted the broomball tourny with
a 3-on-3 basketball tourny. It was okay, I guess. I think
Nate was bummed about the tubing hill as much as I was.
There really wasn't much to do with that out of the way.
All we could do was walk around (which we didn't feel like
doing much since it was sooooo windy and cold all
weekend), and play cards in the dining hall. Yippee.

So, needless to say it was an interesting weekend for most
of us. I woke up on Saturday morning with the worst
stomach ache I have ever experienced, and I couldn't
figure out what it was from. Well I later found out that I
had started my period. It's actually on time, too. That
was what surprised me the most. Along with that surprise
came the fact of knowing that I got to go horseback riding
that same day. lol I survived though, and I enjoyed
myself. I didn't get to ride near Nate though, I had to be
first in line, and he was almost last in line. After we
got back from horseback riding was when Nate told me that
he wasn't really having fun.

We went back to the dining hall and I decided to get
something to drink and go outside and sit, away from Nate
to have a pity party. It worked, because my sister and I
sat outside talking for a while, and Leonard walked by and
talked to us briefly. Then he went in the dining hall, and
must have told Nate that we were outside. I had a baseball
cap on, and when I saw Nate come outside, I hid my face in
my sweatshirt, to conceal the fact that I was crying. I
was so upset that he wasn't having a good time. So Beth
left us alone, and we talked. He said it wasn't my fault,
that I couldn't help the fact that he wasn't having fun.
That made me feel a little better, but it still hurt me to
know that he wasn't enjoying hisself as much as I was
enjoying myself. But after that talk, it got better, and
he seemed to have more fun. I think.

We both slept on the way home, then when we got home he
stayed a little while then went on his way to beat the
storm that was on its way. I miss him a whole bunch right
now.

Okay well now you are updated with the latest, so I will
leave off. Oh, and by the way, the classes I am taking
this winter semester at MMCC are Anatomy and Physiology,
Medical Terminology(WEB class), Precalculus, and Intro to
Computer Information Systems. This should be an
interesting semester, and hopefully I can bring my GPA up
even more. So, that's the scoop. I will try to keep in
touch and write more often, but we will see what happens.
I will ttyl!

~Em

I love you Nathan!!




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