simply myself

5 loaves and 2 fishes
2004-01-05 17:27:42 (UTC)

Sentosa with CG...Topher's last for a long time...

This isn't a day with much roller-coaster emotions. It was
almost at the same level the whole day...at a level which
is above average. Day was spent at sentosa. I was the
lastest even though i woke up more or less on time. I got
to step up on the urgency cuz I think most of the time I've
got no sense of urgency.

Going to sentosa is always fun. Even though there's not
much to do, always the same things. Kicking a ball around.
Trying to keep the volleyball 'alive' a record number of
times, playing water captains' ball etc...these things are
always fun. I dunno why. The thought that this will be
Topher's last sentosa trip with us didn't quite sink in
even though we kept mentioning it. Tink generally it was
probabaly quite disappointing for topher. 1st there was no
sun, which isn't exactly going to upset him. But everyone
juz started playing cards, and for quite a while. It was ok
after he got the volleyball, and the water games were good
too. Then when we got back to beating the record for
volleyball..dunno why he juz left halfway and was gone for
like at least an hour. Maybe he thought there could have
been more tan xin during the trip. Anyway, I also got a bit
frustrated when some got a bit impatient abt not hitting
the volleyball well....

Dinner was lovely cuz it was at TGI Friday's and it was
sumptuous cuz it was at Fish n Co. After that was photo-
taking at esplanade, till it got a little boring. Had
dessert at California Bistro's and the Tiramisu was
delicious. But then again i was telling Nathan after that
that sometimes when I spend on desserts like these I feel
that I am splurging on it. Even though I really dun do that
often, I dun exactly get the 'it's ok, it's once in a while
feeling' I mean, i'm not extremely disturbed abt it, juz
that on most occasions, unless someone else suggests
desserts and everyone's keen, i probably won't go for it.

Don't know why also. But halfway thru dessert, when i
wasn't exactly talking to anyone sitting ard me, the
thought abt when I will have a gf juz popped up. It's been
a while since I last liked someone. Like for the past like
5-6 years or so, at any point of time i'm sure i had
someone in mind, that i would be thinking of every now and
then, that i would be really looking fwd to chatting with
her, being ard her etc. But i haven't had that for sometime
already, and i'm absolutely cool abt it. In fact these
thots like when will I have a gf dun even pop up often.
Anyway, I've concluded that I have no one in mind cuz I
haven't exactly been meeting new ppl, and I know the little
weaknesses or faults of the girls that i've known for a
long time far too well. I agree that I got to accept the
faults, but then i dunno. Sometimes when u dunno ppl well
enough yet, u kind of think that they are like quite ideal,
and then these faults start appearing, they juz put u back
two steps. It's a little silly so i got to try not to do
that. Sometimes it's juz the case of inertia..been friends
far too long. Anything else seems strange. Like u were nvr
these close with her like for maybe few years, and suddenly
over the span of a few months u become much closer.
Actually to be able to spread it out over a few months is
already quite an accomplishment. Usually these things
happen within a few weeks. The suddenly get to know each
other much better. And it's a bit scary sometimes taking
into account the fact that u have known each other for so
long.

By now whoever's reading this and knows me and my frens muz
be like trying to guess who she is. Actually there is no
one. I'm juz pondering abt it on a very generic basis.
Sorry to disappoint :p




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