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the excitingness of my life
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2004-01-05 04:02:12 (UTC)

im bored

I AM:: hyper
I WANT::booze
I HAVE:: to pee
I WISH:: i knew my real parents
I HATE:: school; people; the world...
I MISS:: all my friends who have died
I FEAR:: that im going to be murdered when im sleeping (i
know im wierd!)
I HEAR:: buzzing noises
I SEARCH:: for meaning to my life
I WONDER:: what the hell u are doing reading this
I REGRET:: mostly not studying enough
I LOVE:: my friends my TRUE friends
I ACHE:: about my childhood
I AM NOT:: as happy as i seem
I DANCE:: in my room and at dances and in cars YES dammit
CARS!
I SING:: when i feel like it
I CRY:: when i fight with my mom
I AM NOT ALWAYS:: drunk so SHUTUP
I WRITE:: when i have something i cant say aloud
I CONFUSE:: microwaves with refridgerators seriously i do
I NEED:: psychological help
I SHOULD:: be doing HW
I HURT:: when i think of my past
I HOPE:: i get into college
I FEEL ALONE:: in my family
I KILL:: myself???
I TALK:: when i want to
I BREAK:: mirrors
I SEE:: these words popping up on my screen as I type
I SMELL:: garlic
I TASTE:: ginger ale
I WORK:: not hard enough
I REMEMBER:: a lot
I HOLD:: my nose
I HIDE:: my true self
I PRAY:: sometimes
I WALK:: in little circles around my house
I DRIVE:: ...shutup
I READ:: whats reading again? do fashion magazines count?
I BURN:: pictures
I BREATHE:: air
I PLAY:: muisc on my stereo
I TOUCH:: the keyboard...see look: pretty letters popping
up cos im touching the buttons...ooo la la
I KNOW:: ...some things...
I SAID:: stuff
I DREAM:: about octupuses i have provlems
I FALL:: for him time and time again
I WAIT:: for me to be 18 so i can leave this FUCKING HOUSE
I LIVE:: to PARTY!


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