spannellman

spannellman
2004-01-02 14:27:04 (UTC)

Backlog - 29/12/03

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Snapshot - life - 29/12/2003

I know I shouldn't be writing this now because I have to
work tomorrow, so I will try to make this brief. The year
is at it's end, and I think it should be summarized.
Some things have been good, some bad. On the good
side, we will find money, and that's about it. On the bad
side is everything else. Probably the most pressing
issue is that of personal space - I am still living at
home with Dad, and this means I am stuck in a small
room. For some reason or other, I never feel like I can
relax at 'home'. Never could, still can't. I need my own or
someone else's home to relax in. So for now, really, I
am in a kind of limbo, like a chryssalis (is that spelling
correct? Doesn't look like it!) waiting to emerge. I would
love to sieze the moment and move out, but I don't want
to rent. I can't validate the idea of throwing money at a
property I don't own. So over the next year I will be madly
scrambling to get money together for a deposit - and
then buy a house. Of course, this means parting with
about $250 a week, but hey, I still have about $400 left
over. These figures will, of course, improve over the
years. Work is fantastic - we have the best computers,
the best hardware, and software which… needs
improvement, but I don't care. At least the ball's out of
my court there. Just had the work christmas party,
which was pretty crazy. My 21st birthday is coming up.
I'm inviting quite a few people. Not really sure what to
expect, we'll see what happens. I just hope there are no
fireworks - there are quite a few potentially hostile
social situations which could arise. Not that I care -
they're not to do with me.
As for the whole music thing - well, I've hit a brick wall,
both mentally and technically. The sampler is giving me
major headaches, it keeps corrupting and losing data,
so as you're working on a song bits of it sort of fall out
and it's a right pain in the arse. My monitors are working
beautifully… as HiFi stereo speakers, but that's about it.
I am chasing up the cause of this problem with the
sampler, and hope to have it fixed soon, but life is busy,
busy busy!
Oh, and the relatives are coming down for my 21st. I'm
going on a short cruise/dinner with them and my family.
Dad asked if I had a 'lady friend' I would like to invite.
'Lady friend'? What? No, I don't have a girlfriend, he
knows that! And I'm not going to invite some poor
unsuspecting wretch along for the purpose of parading
her in front of the rellies to make it look like I am
interested in having one either! I don't want the hassle
of a relationship. Maybe if I meet someone worthwhile,
but otherwise it would just be a waste of her and my
time. And how many worthwhile girls have I met? Well,
one recently, but we know what happened there… in
fact I suspect she may actually be a lesbian, but I don't
know for sure (neither does she). Anyhow, I'm a bit
crook with hayfever, so need to get some sleep. A few
big jobs tomorrow which do not need to go pear
shaped - especially since the manager has gone on
holidays, reducing the wraith-of-boss to worker buffer
zone to nil. So there you go, I may have some more
thoughts to write down soon.




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