leah

no_such_luck
2003-12-31 21:35:59 (UTC)

New Year's Resolutions are for gays

I dont' want to be seen as a pretty thing, because its
the pretty things that we're always breaking.


Well, I don't think I'll have to worry about the New
Year's Eve shindig tonight; I have to work until at least
12, probably later. Oh well, I'm not too upset about it,
honestly. Anyways, when I do get home tonight I'm going
to get wasted; its been almost 6 months since the last
time I got drunk.
The Fucker has officially left. He is now gone to
Texas to boot camp. I didn't think I'd ever get rid of
him. I get so mad at myself b/c I won't just forget about
him and get over it; I just go on hating him. I think I
hate him b/c he's the only guy that I haven't been able to
get over. I honestly can't say why I can't get over him,
he wasn't anything that special. I don't know. But maybe
now that he's gone and I won't have to worry about running
into him or hearing about him I can get on w/my life. I
think I need a guy. It has been 4 months since the Fucker
and I broke up and I haven't even talked to another guy.
It's pretty pathetic. That'll be my New Year's
Resolution...to find a guy. I'm sorry but resolutions are
kinda homo, (not that I'm a homophobe or anything, I have
gay friends), no one ever sticks to them. They're pretty
pointless.
Well, on the bright side, my grandparents that I live
with are going out of town for like a month...which is
fucking awesome. They leave to go to Florida Jan. 15 and
they're not coming back until the end of Feb. I'm
overwhelmed w/joy, you have no idea. So that will
probably be the best (or worst) thing that will happen to
me in 2004 besides graduating high school and going to
college. I thought I was going to fall out of my chair
this morning when my grandmother told me that they would
be gone for that long. They always go camping but they
only stay gone for about a week, not a whole month. I'm
sorry, but I'm ecstatic.
Well I guess that I'm through for now. Until next
time....




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