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RhoHome
2003-12-31 10:53:09 (UTC)

Hail to the light

Got a pedicure today. mmmmm. love when my toesies are
cleansies. love it. love it. maybe cuz i like to pick
at 'em. haha jk. haha you know i'm not.
I feel good. it's 2:38 am on New year's EVE and...i'm
trying to wake off my coffee high. is it right to be
called a high? i think it should have its own name.
like...Nurritty. no, sounds too much like nutter butter.
we all know that's not coffe.. wow, the computer screen is
swaying back and forth. what the hell does that say about
my state of mind right now? hah. wow. oh my. wow.
trippy. seriously weird stuff. it's flowing with the slow
beat of my heart. i like that. no no, i hate peanut
butter. it's making me hate peanut butter. i think i have
to puke. i'm on a boat. what was i...oh. names for
coffee high. right. work off my...tringness. Tringness.
i like that one. doesn't remind me of food that can come
out of my mouth from the inside of my overworked belly
acid sack. i really need to write more when i feel this
way. i used to write songs either right befoeri fell into
a deep sleep or right at the moment i wak eup all drowsy.
grab a piece of paper, or my journal and a pencil...i am
set. i want to start writing again. i want to improve
the guitar skillz. i want to make a list of things to do
tomorrow. i just spelled skills witha z. what the....?
List it:

wake up
do all the things waking up involves
blast some mraz
as i put awy clothing
clean room
walk dog
flurb
what?
do laundry
chill, eat, relax
put that laundry away
redecorate
actually, take down
put shit in boxes...(boo, don't want to move)
no, redecorate
be in denial
i don't want to answer any phone calls
i wont
well, i have to because paranoid adults in my family tree
will think i'm dead or ran away or an kidnapped and phone
cops...not good
don't leave this house till list in finished
juice
fix computer
fix printer
fix more stuff
all in time to kiss a wall at midnight
i'm happy

that's it then. i'll add to it, muck it up, change it,
and all that tomorrow though. it's ok. plans
clausterphobe me. haha, i just made up a verb. don't
clausterphobe me. synonymous to...crowd. ahah, yeah hah,
hahaha, mmhmm.. i wonder what an aquaintance of ine
would think of me if they ever read this. one who doesn't
truly know me. one who...only says hi in the hall at
school. what would they think? the obvious, or something
totally different? it'd be cool.

have you ever known someone you regret knowing, yet want
to keep knowing for the rest of your life?

have you ever spanked a cow? a dog? your mom?

was that a completely gross question?

are you wondering why i all of the sudden started asking
questions?

will anyone ever read this?

i suppose i expect someone to set their eyes on this.
they'd have a time. good or bad, it'd be a time. and
time is always good to have. but when it's lost, it'll be
missed. bad times love to be kept. good times, lost. but
both are cherished. good or bad, it'd be a time.

i've decided i'm too delirious to keep on keepin' on
tonight. i've gone on long enough i believe.

it would be cool to be from New Zealand.

g'day




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