Konstantine

My Big Dreams
2003-12-31 06:18:31 (UTC)

Survey Says

got bored & filled out a few surveys. Here's three of them
from lestat_manson's LJ:

Name: Kelly
Nickname: Belle, Kel, Kell Bell, Charlie (K), Chuck,
Ducky, Purple Duck, Charlotte, Idiot, Freak, Bitch, Spaz,
The Not-So-Ditzy-Cheerleader, The Only
Tolerable/Cool/Likeable Blonde Cheerleader, No The Other
Kelly, Kelly #1, Kelly #2, Konstantine
Birthday: 2-25-89
Birthplace: H. hospital

=Now=
Current mood: eh, apathetic, somewhat fidgety, tired
Current music: Superchic[k] CD & Here’s to the Nights by
Eve 6
Current taste: umm… rancidy Lembas bread & plastic
retainer... I need gum
Current hair: straight & down, varying shades of blonde,
really long, in need of brushing, tousled and annoying
Current clothes: Eeyore pj pants, church retreat tee,
Texas longhorns hoodie, and ever-present silver heart-
chain bracelet
Current annoyance: hovering parents
Current smell: Lembas bread
Current thing I ought to be doing: calling people for my
New Years Eve party
Current windows open: couple AIM, Word, & Internet Explorer
Current desktop picture: a Good Charlotte pic I edited
Current favorite band: Good Charlotte, Linkin Park, Mest,
Nickleback, ect
Current book: Key of Light by Nora Roberts & The
Fellowship of the Ring by J.R. Tolkien
Current cd in stereo: Linkin Park & Superchic[k]
Current crush: same one for the past 2ish years, but more
so out of habit than true emotion. I hope.
Current favorite celeb: Orlando Bloom, Billy Boyd, Dominic
Monaghan
Current hates: nagging parents, pop-ups, little brothers,
migraines, bad lighting, waking up early, the keyboard
tray on my computer armoire, ect

=Do You=
Smoke?: nope
Do drugs?: nope
Have sex?: nope
Give oral?: no. ew no. nononononononononono.
Receive oral?: no.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: not a specific dream
necessarily, more of a theme
Remember your first love?: oh yah
Still love him/her?: ummm, love’s too broad I think. But I
guess… don’t really know. If I do, it’s apathetical &
hibernating.
Read the newspaper?: sure
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yah and I love them. And
their KA fashion sense.
Believe in miracles?: well sure I guess, religious ones.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yah
I’ve seen it happen.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: not of annoying
little boys or stupid selfish people standing in between
me and my coffee or Good Charlotte.
Consider love a mistake?: no, now that I think of it.
Like the taste of alcohol?: mixed with juice, not straight
Have a favorite candy?: Skittles.
Believe in astrology?: no
Believe in magic?: depends

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Five details about your appearance right now.
[x] still in my pj’s
[x] no cosmetics, scary
[x] just out of the shower grunge
[x] covered in cat hair
[x] mismatched

Five things you did today.
[x] invited people to my house for New Years
[x] turned down an invite
[x] made Lembas bread
[x] talked to an old friend that I haven’t seen since July
[x] took a long shower & pissed off my dad

Five groups/artists you listened to yesterday.
[x] Superchic[k]
[x] Nickleback
[x] Something Corporate
[x] Simple Plan
[x] Good Charlotte

Five things that make you happy.
[x] my cats
[x] shopping & reminiscing
[x] cooking & getting compliments on my food
[x] reading & listening to my music & singing along
[x] being by myself for serenity

Five things that disgust you.
[x] dirty needles
[x] soggy food
[x] body waste & vomit
[x] true perverts, not just the mind-in-the-gutter kind,
the molesting raping kind.
[x] dead things

Five things you love
[x] my pets
[x] books
[x] good music
[x] writing
[x] reliving my childhood

Five things you'll do when you complete this.
[x] read a story
[x] take ibuprophen for my migrane & scoliosis (sp)
[x] brush my hair & teeth
[x] update my diary
[x] put up an away message

Five things you feel right now.
[x] tired
[x] edgy
[x] restless
[x] apathetic & sorta numb
[x] pain

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

LEVEL ONE:
-- Name: Kelly
-- Birthdate: 2-25-89
-- Birthplace: H. Hospital
-- Current Location: home in front of my upstairs computer
-- Eye Color: brown
-- Hair Color: varying shades of blonde
-- Height: 5’6ish?
-- Righty or Lefty: lefty
-- Zodiac Sign: pisces

LEVEL TWO
-- Your heritage: cherokee, swedish, danish, irish,
english, & something else
-- The shoes you wore today: didn’t wear any
-- Your weakness: good art, animals, little kids,
emotional songs, certain guys.
-- Your fears: rejection, hatred, regrets, having an STD,
making a total ass of myself in front of someone who
matters to me, giving people a reason to make fun of me,
losing control, being stereotyped, showing weakness,
someone else having control of me, going to Hell, hurting
someone badly.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: meet Good Charlotte &
hang out with them, not be an idiot, marry & have kids
with the man I love, be happy with me, learn to play
piano, break the blonde cheerleader stereotype.


LEVEL THREE
-- Your most overused phrase: it was so _____ (insert
adjective)
-- Your thoughts first waking up: what’s going on, what
time is it, why the hell did they invent mornings, why am
I waking up, what music’s playing & at what volume, is my
lava lamp on & burning my house down.
-- Your best physical feature: my hair
-- Your bedtime: whenever I feel like sleep or when I get
sick of my parents

LEVEL FOUR
-- Pepsi or Coke: neither, no carbonated drinks
-- McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds if I have to. Just
thinking of it makes me nauseous.
-- Single or group dates: group
-- Adidas or Nike: whichever, I don’t really wear them.
Well I have a Nike shirt I wear, so I guess that means
Nike. I don’t really care.
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton cuz that’s all I have
access to.
-- Chocolate or vanilla: both
-- Cappuccino or coffee: latte

LEVEL FIVE
-- Smoke: no
-- Cuss: Fuck yes all the time, obsessively, compulsively,
way too much.
-- Sing: all the time
-- Take a shower everyday: nope whenever I feel like I
need one
-- Have a crush(es): yah
-- Do you think you've been in love: yah
-- Excited to go to college or university?: I don’t really
know, not really, kinda, I guess…
-- Like high school: the social aspect
-- Want to get married: yes
-- Believe in yourself: somewhat
-- Get motion sickness: yah
-- Think you're attractive: kinda, I guess
-- Think you're a health freak: *snort* no way. Hell no.
-- Get along with your parents: rarely
-- Like thunderstorms: yah as long as I’m inside
-- Play an instrument: soon to play guitar.

LEVEL SIX: In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: no
-- Made Out: no, kind of depressing.
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall?: yup got my orgasmic combat boots.
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no I’d be sick
-- Eaten sushi: yup
-- Been on stage: umm... I dont think so...
-- Been dumped: no thank God
-- Gone skating: almost but then went shopping instead
-- Made homemade cookies: nope, Lembas bread all the way
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen anything: no comment

LEVEL SEVEN: Ever..
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no
-- Been caught "doing something": as in what context? yah
i guess, nothing dirty sorry for any perverts out there.
-- Been called a tease: yah
-- Gotten beaten up: not truely
-- Changed who you were to fit in: yah biggest mistake in
my weak life

LEVEL EIGHT
-- Age you hope to be married: 24, 25
-- Numbers and Names of Children: oh wow, do I have a
list. I want 2 or 3, but I have so many names… & yes I’m
going to list them all. Emily Anne, Joshua Keith, Kyle
Quinn, Keri Adara, Gwenevere (Gwen) Felecia, Genevieve
Kristine, Sara Arlyn, Patricia Marie, Alaina Lynn, Carter,
Sean Fynn, Brendan Edan, Corey Mitchell.
-- Describe your dream wedding: outdoors in spring or in a
little country chapel, with a long aisle of white fabric
covered in pink or red rose petals, with pink or red
flower arrangements. Music will be sections of Konstantine
by Something Corporate, Jesu Joy of Man’s Desiring,
instrumental of Seasons & Time After Time by GC, & some
other pretty songs. Lots of friends & family; pale soft
colors abounding nothing bold & vibrant. I haven't thought
about it much.
-- How do you want to die: ~‘here’s to dying in another’s
arms, and why I had to try it.’-Something Corporate~
Painlessly surrounded by the people I love, unconsious
first so I don’t have to feel death coming. No regrets.
and, added bonus: a KA death song (according to analysis):

Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)-GreenDay

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

-- Where you want to go to college/university?: Concordia
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: teacher
-- What country would you most like to visit: Ireland,
England again, France, Switzerland (sp), China

LEVEL NINE: In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color?: blue
-- Best hair color?: don’t care, natural
-- Short or long hair: hair that I can play with but not
really long so we’re competing with length. Shorter than
shoulder-length.
-- Height: taller than me
-- Best weight: average if it has to matter
-- Best articles of clothing: sweatshirt
-- Best first date location: group date to a
restaurant, somewhere public, or single at home watching
movies and cuddling
-- Best first kiss location: mine was in my backyard, or
in a movie theater depending on criteria; best place would
be at the beach or somewhere at night, public so you get
the full magical effect

LEVEL TEN
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: zero
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 8 or 9
-- Number of CDs: oh wow… mine personally that I actually
listen to frequently, 50ish. Otherwise, 100-something plus
-- Number of piercings: 5
-- Number of tattoos: none
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?:
oh wow no idea. a couple of times.
-- number of scars on my body: lost count at: 30 on my
left arm, too many to even attempt counting on my right,
15/20 on my legs, & countless in other places. thankfully
they're not very visible.
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: too many I
don’t want to dwell on.




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