scooter

scooter's life:smothered in stupid
2003-12-30 03:50:58 (UTC)

wing down

im so sad. i am so tired. so tired of asking of begging
him. maybe he really is trying and it just isnt enough for
me. i know hes not trying and i know im letting him not
try. he doesnt have enough gas to come see me. if he got a
job like he promised me he would, he wouldnt have that
problem. he has no direction. he has no real purpose. he
doesnt seem to have any goals. we are so wrong for each
other. everyone can see it. everyone except us. why do i
keep asking? because i want to be happy. why doesnt he
deliver? he doesnt know how. same thing. his next
girlfriend should be really pleased. i know she wont be as
high maintenence as i am. why does he have to harp on
the "good things" he does? if they were so good, he wouldnt
feel like he has to remind me of them. i dont know what to
do. there is no way to make him what i want. no way he will
be what i think he should be. that is wrong. all i can
think to do is let it go. let everything go. i want to do
that so much lately. my biggest fear is that he will not
care. he wil not care like i do. i dont think i would hurt
this much, cry this much if i didnt
care. **scooter**




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