Mezzo Swede

A Toast to World Domination
2003-12-29 07:16:21 (UTC)

Burning Bowl

Not much news to report today. The cat is still eating
ornaments. I can never seem to catch him in the act. I
always come in right after the silver bells on the tree
have sounded, only to be greeted by the little guy smiling
at me. I guess I don't have any concrete evidence that he's
actually eating the ornaments, but I base my assumption on
his proud grin, and the trail of pine needles leading into
his house. Silver bells don't just sound on their own. They
toll only upon the touch of little naughty paws.

In church today we wrote down all the thoughts and feelings
that have been weighing us down this past year, on little
pieces of paper. When I was done writing, it was obvious
that a little post-it size paper wasn’t enough for a
worrier like me. There was more ink than there was white
space. Anyway, when everyone was done we took the papers
and threw them into a fire. For a while there I was feeling
pretty good. I actually felt that burning a physical piece
of paper could somehow liberate my mind from these various
encumbrances, which have unconsciously enslaved me this
past year. Crazy, isn’t it… turning to pyromania in order
to get over your worries… seems like it should be so easy,
to just THINK DIFFERENTLY. Forget. Forgive. Move on. To
make a long story a bit less long…I straightened up, and
headed out the door, reeking of rebirth, and my hands
coated with a fresh layer of my cremated burdens.

For about 8 hours, I felt revitalized. I felt ready to face
existing challenges, solve annoying issues, and tackle new
and wonderful projects! It took about 8 hours, before I
realized that the world was still the same. People around
me, who would probably laugh at me for thinking I could get
a mental clean slate by setting my cares on fire, were
still the same. My enthusiasm for the most part, was still
met with cynicism and sarcasm. Sometimes I wonder if people
have forgotten that I have feelings. And if so, what on
earth did I do to give them that impression? This world
isn’t very conducive to change and personal improvement.

I just got back from seeing the movie “Stuck on You” with
Luis. It was really funny.

Matt Damon is cool.

I’ve got to go. Face is eating Christmas lights.




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