kal

Unspoken
2003-12-29 02:57:37 (UTC)

catching up

Now that I've slept away most of they day. I figure it's
time to do something somewhat constructive. Exactly how
constructive this turns out to be is entirely up to you.

First off, so you are aware of my current state of mind, I
have spent the better part of today sleeping. I'm not ill,
at least not yet, but I'm certainly not right. Anyway.

Where to begin...? Christmas has come and gone in a fairly
quiet way. Nothing very exciting. I've abandonded my diet
for the holidays and fear I have gained back all I've lost.
Probably not all but I'm far to terrified to weight myself
to find out for sure! Will begin again after the New Year.
Spent Christmas Eve at my sister's house and Christmas Day
at my aunt's house. Attended a holiday party last night. I
don't like parties much, particularly when I don't know
more than 3 people there. I did get two opinions regarding
my current (and perpetually) single situation: 1) Good for
you! Men aren't worth it! (from a twice divorced woman who
spends most of her free time in a bar) and 2) Enjoy this
time and do anything and everything you want to do before
you get tied down and can't (from a woman who'd been
married for about 6 months). I rather agree with Clare's
responses: 1) I'd like to find out for myself that men
aren't worth it and 2) Having done lots of things on my
own, I'd like to have someone to do all of those things
with for a change. Lisa and her husband have decided that
I'm too sweet of a person to be alone and they're going to
try to find someone for me. When I told them that I'm okay
as I am and that I'm not driving myself crazy searching,
they thought that was great. Lisa even said she was a bit
envious. Imagine that.

That said, if I'm still single next Christmas, I'm going to
shoot myself!

Lisa works in a staffing agency and she wanted to set up an
interview tomorrow for a temporary position starting
Tuesday. As much as I've LOVE to go for this job (though
it's not perfect, it's something new) I can't simply walk
out on Didi without any notice. Too bad really. I
definitely need a change of scenery. I asked Lisa to keep
an eye out for any other openings that might be
appropriate. At this point, it's all I've got.

On that same subject, I have begun searching in earnest for
a new job. The classifieds are useless in that the listings
in my local newspaper seem to come only from Connecticut.
Hardly useful to me, living in New York. Grrr. But
something has to be done. I can no longer tolerate my
current situation and I know if I don't move on soon, it
will only get worse. As will my state of mind.

Ahh but I have left out the best part! Clare was her for
her visit and it was wonderful! We went to shows, did some
sight-seeing, lots of shopping and tons of walking. I had
such a lovely time. Just the change of scenery did wonders
for my mood. Of course, now that it's done, I've been
slapped straight back into the reality of my life. Too bad.
Thinking about what Lisa said, I'd love to just up and take
off to London. Really, what's keeping me here? Not a thing.
If I had the money I'd be on a plane tomorrow.

Well, I suppose that's got me caught up for now.

Until we meet again...


kal




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