terrilee

terrilees life
2003-12-26 13:58:41 (UTC)

glad to be home

so glad to be home after vacation! it was so nice to come
home to a million emails from freinds and lots of messages
on my phone from eddie and was so glad he wasnt still mad
at me. i had so much fun but the best part was all the time
with my dad. we talked about so much. i need that time..i
was slipping back into drinking to much again. its hard but
i need to stay away from booze and drugs or it will destroy
me. i keep screwing up but this time i want my life in the
right direction and to STAY there this time. im realy
happy my dad has moved here and im going to live with him.
its so cold here after being in cali but the beach is so
peacful and it helps me think. i have so much to think
about. im starting a new out patent program after new
years. i guess its sorta like a rehab but not quite. criss
bought me a new kitten i was SOOO surprised! he is a
beautiful kitten to and im taking good care of him. well
today im gonna do some shopping then i gotta gather my some
things to start bringin over to my dads..ill be glad to
leave my aunts now caz things havent been the same with me
and her. but i guess this is a new beginging with me and my
dad. it seems ties with my mom are completly gone. the
memories at our old house are gone now and im glad ill
never see that house again. i dont want to see jersey ever
again. my brother never moved but hes deciding where he
wants to go and manny says he is moving to boston to be
close to me..and ohhh i dont know what to think about that.
i have to take life one day at a time. well i want to
forget about that for now. im sorta in a good mood today
althou im not slepping good these days. ive been taking
sleeping pills to sleep but u cant take them every night.
UGH!! im watching arthur now and drinking coffee and
deciding what to wear. me and dad are going out to lunch
today also. i guess i will be back later.




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