pdonovan

Life
2003-12-21 19:59:12 (UTC)

what a weekend

well where do i start, well friday should be the start.
it started out me goin to st albans were i met up with
stev, we planed to do Magic Mushrooms i have done them
befor and i 4t it was all cool. but i was wrong.
it started out gr8 i got 30gs for £20 when it should have
been £30. we went back to stevs and we made tea nothing bad
right? anyway i started tripping and it was nice, thenw e
went off adn met trev who got back form college went to
his, we left his and then met up with Erica, stevs gf, we
hanged round with them for a bit, then me and stev went
back to his, Erica went X-mas shopping.
when we got back we his we made more tea and well this
might have been where it went wrong.
we left his to meet Erica and we were tripping vary hard,we
met her and her m8. we talked then she went home and me and
stevs went to trevs. we got there and we just eat a few
mushys. nothing major, well after about an hour at trevs,
he made tea and i added so mushrooms. well after that it
went bad for me and stev. he started haveing a bad trip and
i tryed to get his mind off if but he just kept thinking
crap and started getting scard. we left trevs and waited
for him out side when all of a sudden stev looked as if he
was goin to drop dead he was pale, couldnt stand and well
just looked like shit.
he sead to me there and then "i cant die now i cant do that
to erica" i was like "shit" i told him to look at me and
told him "ur in control not the drugs snap out of it or ur
fucked" he seemed to lision to me, but he was in a state.
so i moved him up the road i was tripping like a bitch.
it was strange ive done mushys befor but nothing like this
has happened.
i was looking round and i was seeing flashing lights in
houses and such. i didnt know what was goin on i was
loseing it completely. trev walked down the road stev was
fucked, he sead to me "i cant c" i told him that he could
and he was just thinking the worst.
we started walking and well it was strange it was realy
was. i had to stop told the others to keep walking, all i
was doin was makeing sure that i was still saine.
we went to the park in town away from the noise and shit
but it made it worse, it was black dark couldnt c. i triped
hard anyway things where goin okish, but on the way to the
park i suddenly couldnt breath i was shitting it, but i
knew it was my mind not something wrong so i had to think
about breathing and it work.
we got to the park the trees were well how do i explan it
mmmmmmm....ahh i know u know when u were young and u read
horror books and there was always a house on a hunted hill
with them trees, well that what it looked like. i started
shitting it but i knew i was cing thing.
the night went on and well i started to chill out, we went
back to stevs but on the way i got the giggles and i
couldnt stop, i was fucked, then i past out there and then
bang hit the floor, the i was awake in like a split sec but
i couldnt move.
after that we got back to stevs and i tripped in there
safely.
it started to ware off so i rang stef and she told me she
had a shit night to, then whe i was saying god by i tripped
out once more and sead it out loud i felt like a fuck i
just made it so bait that i was fucked. then as soon as i
hanged up i felt like a dick so i sent her a txt saying
sorry and saying that she must think im a dick.
she rang my mob and told me to ring her back so i did, we
spoke and this time i got a better idea what had happened.
we spoke for a while and we planed to meet up on staterday.

then saterday came and she wanted me to go to hers yay, i
had a feeling somthing was wrong but i didnt know, well me
and trev got there and she let us in, we went to her
bedroom there was shaine and somone i didnt know, well till
i was introduced but i dont know he gave me the dirtest
look. it was adem, i knew just then she was cing him i
didnt know y, i jsut did.
well that day went and i felt depressed i just wanted to
drink and not stop, well that was what i was doin her stefs
as she had some vodca.
went back to stevs and told him and shit.
i sent her a txt saying soming along the lines of "i guess
i was rite in tink that my chances with u r out the window,
figures tb paddy xxx"

well then came sunday i had slept round lighas with jack
and trev. i got to trevs and cheak my mail and i had an
email from stef saying:
"baby wats wrong y r u in ur own personal hell? cheer up
plez i dont want 2 c u suffering eventho u think i cant c
it!
im so so so sorry about sat i realy should explaned more
about adam ive kinda been cin him 4 a month now thats 1 of
the reasons y we couldnt go out coz i was wit him but i do
like u as well also i think we need 2 b friends be4 we go 2
far thats y i liked yesterday coz i saw u as a m8 and play
fiting wit u is fun!sorry if i hurt u xxxxx
woohoo cant wait till march i gettin my tongue pierced and
u and steve ur eye brows i think ur well guna suit havin ur
eye brow pierced
our chances haven gone out the window its just 2 soon if ur
willin 2 wait that is!
email me asap k lve ya stef xxxxxxxxxxxxx"

i wanted to hit somthing in fact i wanted to just go and
die but whats the points its like ive always beens built up
and knocked down but for some reson this got to me i dont
know why the fuck it did maby it cos i like her alot or
maby cos im just being sick of being buildt up and knocked
down, tho this time it felt like i was kicked in the balls
and then knocked down after having my heart riped out,
fucking hell i dont know what a weekend, i fuck up on
Shrooms and i find out (well confirmed) that stef was with
somone elce,
what a weekend hay......




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