DeathBecomesMe

DeathBecomesMe
2003-12-19 07:18:02 (UTC)

does anyone care

o well i was having a great day. people came over. had hot
girls in my room. my report is good. THEN i talked to
jessie. i know her latest bf is a fucking asshole and she
falls for the lies. o well i need to get off that.
ilstarting to like linsay alot. but she dosnt know it and
i find it hard to tell her. ive asked her out on a date.
isnt that enof. o well ill ask her out again. GOD i hate
this feeling of unserteinty. God i hate being dsylexic.
God i hate that u take the people that i love. really my
mentor, my best friend, my fauther, what do u do give me a
ass hole stepdad. why. do u love me. does anyone. well i
know one does. well two. thank you for them. with out them
i would be dead. o well i worry about said things to much.
talk about the happy things. what makes me happy. o yeah
drugs and sex. wait i cant have either. o well what else.
booze i guess i can have that. but i cant moderate it.
after one drink i have ten. o well i need someone to save
me. who likes in flames im liteing to them. thats the way
i feel thats my mood.

Lock the door, kill the light
No one's coming home tonight

It's getting colder [7x]
Locked in a place where no one goes.

Lock the door, kill the light
No one's coming home tonight

if any one can tell me what the exerpts from ill love. its
by my faviret band o well its a cover and its not in
flames. i stoped listening to music for a while. and
started sleeping. but all is changing again. no sleep more
music. without the drugs. without the falsehood of my life
being something other then lieing to everyone that im
alive and well. i dont even care to live to see tomarow,
whe tomarow brings the pain of defeat. i want to die. dont
watch me try to set my life ablaze. watch me die. o well
noones going to read this. ull all just think that im a
loser and shit and go to someone who lives a happy shallow
life complain about how there mate isnt doing what they
want. to quote korn "im going to cut myself and watch the
blood hit the ground" or tool "the snake behind me hisses
what my damage could have been. my blood before me begs me
open my heart again." o well either way




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