sweetaddiction

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2003-12-16 04:10:42 (UTC)

and here i am another night..

and here i am another night drunk as fuck
and i sit here and i think about nothing
ebcaue thats best
when i think about nothing i cant think about her and it
is then that i am the happiest
despite what i tell myself
i miss her
and i fuck people and i love people
but not like her
and this all seems so stupid
she doesnt love me
she doesnt love me she doesnt love me she doesnt love me
and she never ever ever will

fuck

fuck

FUCK

damnit.

not even the billions of people i get involved with now
can make up for her absence in my life.

...i am pathetic. and stupid.

and she doesnt love me.

fuck......

i miss her so much. so fucking much.

"stop calling me"

thats what i said.

and its right. i know its whats right.

but i keep invisioning her.
asleep on my foot.

she is the only one i ever felt.

the one i loved.

and....the one who has now left.

yeah....

ill get over it...

somehow......

i love you emily, and i miss you.
i wish you didnt leave me alone like you did.
this place is pretty horrible without you.....
but id rather have it like this.
than acknowledge the fact that youre fucking 390429-
people besides me and sleeping with themand loving them..


i would have been perfectly happy with you being the last
person i ever kissed.

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