psychomagnet

are you thinking of me when you fuck her.

an older version of me, is she perverted like me
would she go down on you in a theater

cus the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
to make it enough for you to be open wide, no

it was a slap in the face how quickly i was replaced
and are you thinking of me when you fuck her

cus the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
and every time you speak her name,
does she know how you told me you'd hold me
until you died, til you died, but you're still alive

cus the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
and I'm not gonna fade as soon as you close your eyes
and you know it
and every time i scratch my nails down someone else's back
i hope you feel it... can you feel it

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i woke up pretty early for being up as late and as drunk as
i was. i was sooo grumpy last night. first, my mom turns
off my phone when i wasnt in the room because sebastien
called and she didnt want to upset matt!!! so i didnt even
notice for like an hour, i probably still wouldnt know if i
didnt have the obsessive phone checking problem. and im
like what the fuck. i TOLD her before he came over that if
anyone called, i was going to get rid of him. because she
wanted to play drinking games, shes whining that its a
saturday night and i havent seen him in a week, and im
like. if caroline calls or sebastien calls, he's leaving.
so youre in charge of watching how much he drinks. so she
turns my phone off?! i NEVER turn my fucking phone off.

so i fell asleep and asshole woke me up to walk him out,
to realize that his fucking keys are locked in his car.
what a fucking moron. oh my god how fucking stupid can one
person be. i was so incredibly mad. so he took my car to
his house to get them and all the while laughing at me cus
im so mad and im like i fucking hate you. i was cold and
tired and even less than usual in the mood for his idiocy.

so sebastien ends up just coming over banging on the door
and window waking me up at 130 when im finally passed out.
so someone must have let him in cus all of a sudden his
goofy ass is on top of me in my bed kissing my head and
tickling me and im like uggghhh not even dressed and all
curled up and he's all excited to see me and im
like "nooooooooooo come back tomorrow" so he sits there for
what seems like forever and im not even moving out of bed
at this point im so fucking tired. so he left.

and then i get up to get some water at 330, and the dog
ATE MY FUCKING JEANS. so i put him in his little cage with
a bone and get back into bed, and he did not stop crying
ALL NIGHT. im so crabby now its not even funny.

so we walked to blockbuster to get some movie for my mom
last night, and i was real shit faced and he somehow brings
up caroline and diana and im like "SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!" lol
and hes like "its okay adrienne i know you slept with her"
and im like "what! when!?" lol... he just thought i was
being goofy i think. but i got so mad.

im cleaning. then im guna study. because cleaning gives
me energy. then maybe i'll go finish shopping.

dawn's guna be here this week!!!! YAY!!!! and the next
week, im guna be with my little girl and my family!!! =)=)
=)=)=)