sweetaddiction

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2003-12-11 06:58:40 (UTC)

stupid fucking slut after..

stupid fucking slut after stupid fucking slut....
meaning has lost all credibility.
there is no meaning no love pain hurt torture fucking
touching masking hatred for another feeling breathing in
and out like the waves of my life alcohol in sex out
breathing keep breathing pretneding i dont care i dont
matter i dont exist and she leaves and she left and this
one leaves and SHE LEFT and this one leaves like i fucking
care like i care if they call if they come over again if
it was good maybe was i too drunk baby did i pass out
sorry sorry but im over that word it got trite so
overheard nothing you mean nothing and i never meant
anything to you did i tell me i did tell me you love me
and i will believe you for the rest of my life anyone else
i dont i dont i dont care care i dont fucking care i never
will i never did just you you and you dont care you leave
SHE LEFT you fucking left me alone all fucking alone in a
dirty town in a dirty city alone where i knew no one and
no im so much cooler so much better ALONE without you i am
alone with 7093280 others i am ALONE you are what made me
whole and you LEFT you took it away and now i will DIE
ALONE without you withoutyou sluts dirty fucking sluts
that i will FUCK. i will FUCK THEM BECAUSE YOU LEFT.
because i wouldnt let you come back now call again again
again keep calling it doesnt matter you LEFT and you are
fucking gone and you will stay that way because you care
nothing for me why do i care for you i dont i dont i dont
i keep telling myself that like it will take away the hurt
you left nothing but the hurt thats all thats here not me
im gone i wasnt anything i am nothing you were it and now
thats gone and i am anything but normal crazy statistic
fucking i am a statistic as i study and study and try to
fill my head with anything and everything that will fit to
replace the gradual loss of you you you it is all you and
you