sad and sadistic

my diary....oh joy
2003-12-10 22:02:41 (UTC)

I ve just come back from the..

I've just come back from the school's Christmas Carol
concert. It was so incredibly boring. I was so bored
towards the end that I started balancing my music stand on
my feet and moving it up and down, then I kept on losing
the balance and it hit the boy in front of me on the back.
That was more fun so I kept on kicking my stand at him,
then he got really annoyed and goes 'stop it you freaky
grunger bitch' I can't remember if he used the word 'bitch'
or 'girl' but either way it's hilarious. a) I'm not a
grunger and b) even if I was I wouldn't be all that
offended.
But it was still so crap. I wanted to leave about half way
through because I wanted to cry because Rhiannon Eglin was
doing a solo on the piano that she was improvising. She's
really good at the piano, and composes all these pieces.
The thing is, her and Daniel are really close, Daniel calls
her his twin and everything. Before Daniel and I were
together, he goes to me, 'I really want my Rhiannon' and I
go 'Ring her then' and then he goes 'But thats just her
voice, I want all of her' and then I go 'Ask her out then'
and he goes 'Nah, lack of money and I don't look too good'.
I get jealous so easily. And I feel kinda bad, because I
really hate her, she's so talented and pretty and she means
so much to Daniel, but she's always been so nice to me. At
Alex's party she said to me 'I like you lots because you
make Daniel so happy. You're a beautiful lovely person.' I
don't know her very well, so that was quite a nice thing to
say. But hearing her play the piano just reminded me how
untalented I am, and how much Daniel loves her. And he's
been telling me, especially recently that he's never felt
about anyone the way he does for me, and he loves me so
much, but that doesn't make all the hating of Rhiannon go
away.




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