CCaraballo7

Christina's Thing!
2003-12-10 02:34:13 (UTC)

12-9-03 Bad Night

Everything is crashing down on me today... i dont know
why.. i have just been thinking.. See Kalen is a senior and
im a freshman and he is leaving for college next year.. and
i know how he wont come back and visit... i just dont want
anything bad to happen.. i really like him and nothing can
change that its crazy how much i think about him.... but
the thing is when i think about him i cry because i feel
like something bad is gonna happen.. so i dont weant to get
close to him... because im scared i'll get hurt... but i am
close to him and it hurts to think about how i have to let
g of him after this year is over and how im gonna lose him
to all the other girls in his college.. and how he will
forget me and not care about me anymore.. i love him so
much i just cant stand how im going to get screwed over!!..
i always get screwed over some how and it always hurts!! i
feel so strongl;y for him and nothing can change that!!....
and tonight he asked me to go to movie with him and his
friends but i couldnt cause my mom said no so i got mad and
started yelling and plus i really want to be with him
tonight but since i cant be it sucks.. so i was yelling and
he said he was sorry and he signed off.. and then he signed
back on and said he loved me then told me he would call me
when he got back... omg i love him!! and i cant help
it ..... i have to go cause he is supposed to call soon
ill write something another time...


oh yeah and today is the day i met Kalen one month ago so..
its like a one month anniversay!! but only not.. and im
sure he doesnt care!!




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