Self harming dyke
I had a good first day at new school. Not teaching this
week, is just orientation then teaching after Christmas
for whole term. The behaviour is like a different world
from where I was last practice. I reckon the kids'll think
I'm a demon ogre cos I had to be so strict before, it will
take time for me to trust the new bunch! But the place is
so purposeful, fun, safe-feeling and happy. The pupils are
polite and the teachers are better-organised and actually
have time to teach rather than just spending the whole
hour controlling behaviour, or failing to!
So, yeah... things are OK.
My psychotherapy appt on 23rd is with a woman who does CAT
(cognitive analytical therapy) which could be interesting.
Trying not to get too hopeful about it in case it goes the
way of all my assessments and I get dumped again...
My arm is so sore from the burns. The blister is just
getting deeper and spreading, without any more burning
happening :( I like the pain, but it is a bit worrying
that it seems to be getting worse...
"Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me"