kloolisspryncess

*UnDeCiDeD fEeLiNgZ*
2003-12-08 03:38:03 (UTC)

* :-D *

12.07.03 10:36 PM

i REALLY want to call angela or carmen and talk to them,
but angela ain't picking up her cell and carmen's step mom
said she ain't home. so damn it. im stuck talking to you..
LoL just playing, you know i love updating.

10:43 PM

allright. my comp went gay on me for a second there and i
had to get offline..
but ne wayz,
i was talking to JR on the phone, and we were talking
about when i called him friday (i called him on my dad's
cell phone when i was with tommy, jean, matt and kyle) and
he got mad at me.
well he was like "omg"
*me "what?"
-jr "i got mad at you for taking time out of what you were
doing and thinking about me and calling me."
*me "JR, its okay."
-jr "no, its not.."

then he started saying that he was such an ass to everyone
all the time, and omg, he was crying! i have never heard
him, or any guy for that matter*cept my bro, but he ain't
really a guy*, cry before... and it got me SO upset, b.c
he was beating himself up over it, and he's not an ass!
he's really not. he's the best guy i know. he treats me
like a princess (better than i probably should be
treated), and he puts up with alot of my shyt that he
really doesn't have to.
and then he went into how people don't care to know that
he has another side to him, that he has emotions, that
he's a hopeless romantic (aww!) and all this stuff.. and i
was just losing it because i love him SO much and i hate
seeing him upset..

damn it.. brb comp is GAY!

10:54 PM
oh-kay. i honestly don't think i have ever cared about
anyone like i care about him. i can't imagine myself with
ANYONE else.. and i don't want to either. he is the
perfect guy for me. it scares me tho, because im 15 and i
already know who i want to spend the rest of my life with.
and that feeling is.. wow.. overpowering, i guess...
omg.. but i have the most awesomest idea for another
christmas present for him... i'll tell you AFTER
christmas, just in case he finds a way in here and reads
this :-D *ha! you thought you were gonna know what it was!
* hehe
but i have never felt this close to him before. its like,
us talking like we did, like, i don't know.. made us
closer on some level. like.. wow.. :-D i haven't grinned
this much since we started going out.

.... he's the only person that has ever made me feel truly
beautiful. like, angela and carmen and them tell me im
pretty, but they're my friends, they have to say things
like that. but he's JR... he's a guy.. he doesn't have to.
but he does. and he makes me feel like im the only person
in the world..

well, g2g.. comp is gay again..

byez~ ttyl lyl
xoTay




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