Tristan

mugoikyoushu
2003-12-06 23:10:48 (UTC)

Hope...

Leutinant Mamiya...

"...I was truly sorry to hear that your wife left you,
but that is a matter on which I am unable to offer you any
advise. I have lived far too long a time without the
benifit of love or family and thus am unqualified to speak
on such matters. I do believe, however, that if you feel
the slightest willingness to wait a while longer for her to
come back, then you probably should continue to wait there
as you are now. That is my opinion, for what its worth. I
reolize full well how hard it must be to go on living alone
in a place from which someone has left you, but there is
nothing so cruel in this world as the desolation of having
nothing to hope for..."

Its a bit of a letter from a book, Its addressed to Toru.
Heh, the we share the first letters of our first names.
He's me, except older and with a much longer fuse.

We're both submissive. We both are currently going no
where. We've both done nothing with our lives. We're both
starting to move, ever so slowly. We've both given up
everything to create our own little worlds. We've both lost
ones whome we loved.

No, not quite me. He has a chance of getting her back. The
more I hope, the more futures I know won't happen. The more
futures I know won't happen, the more correct my guesses
are. The more correct my guesses are, the less hope I have,
then I see something to believe in, to hope for, and it
starts over again. Perpetual motion. over and over again.

Heh, and I thought I had changed.




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