Broken_Angel

Diary
2003-12-05 03:16:44 (UTC)

dream a little dream...

December 4th. What do I want for Christmas? Not like it
matters much anyway...only good little boys and girls get
what they want. What I want though, is someone to have my
back. My life feels like a constant battle against my
mind, against my body, and against my faith...not to
mention my mother (and sometimes i think maybe my brother
and my sister too). All I want is someone on my side, and
no, I'm not asking for somebody to like me for who I am or
see how great of a person I could be, because I'm not sure
that who I am is really likeable or that the person I could
be is even that great. I'm sure that I'm mediocre at best,
but don't even the mediocre deserve someone on their side.
I just don't think that anyone should have to deal with
life alone. You know, I'm a lot stonger than some of you
might think, but I'm nowhere near as strong as I have to
be. Anyway, that's what I want for Christmas. But I would
also be happy with some new underwear.

God, I'm so emo. I'm sitting here listening to Our Lady
Peace *gag* and typing in a stupid online diary. But I
guess even I need a little pathetic to balance out the mega-
coolness that is my life.




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