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days and days
2003-12-04 23:06:03 (UTC)

2003-10-21 23:53:09 (GMT) shredded

Suddenly everything is totally blurring and i can't decide
whether i like it or not.

.. this new girl, steph, whom i think i actually like...
turns out, she's bi.. and that i apparently have a chance
with. Only thing holding me back.. is that we've know each
other for a little too long.. it might be weird. I don't
wanna move in too fast on her.. she's not used to that..
and i don't want things to make us not be friends... ACH!
I think i can talk to her more openly... last night we
stayed up really late talking about different makeout
sessions and crushes on females and stuff... she's one of
the first friends who i've trusted that info with... but i
really do find her an amazing person.. and i'd absolutely
LOVe to date her... hmmm... now i am stuck.
I have a feeling steph will not work out..
because i am not one of those people who talks about
emotions openly to ppl i like.. it's weird. I'll go up and
kiss someone randomly.. but when it comes to actually
dating.. i suck!
I just want it all to be right...
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i am happy one minute... then my mind shoves me down to
the
ground and tells me to cry. It points its finger of reality
at my pathetic face and laughs. AH! My life is so fucked
right now
There seems to be no easy answers now...




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