jenybands21

this is it.
2003-12-01 17:41:24 (UTC)

realization

there are times that make me really look down into who i
am and what i belive. there are situations that force me
to be a better person. i think this break has done that
for me. see, i've almost always had issues with my
grandpa, since i was about 14ish. i wasn't around him that
much, and every little thing he did wrong was a major
injustice against me, and against everyone in our family.
but seeing him this weekend really made me think. i love
him, which i havn't really said. plus, i mean, he's
getting older, he has cancer, i don't know if i've
mentioned that...i've been really unfair to him for a long
time. seeing him...he's really not the same person. he's
not as strong, he's more passive, he forgets things more.
he slumps in his chair...

i feel awful for how i've treated him, or not really
treated, but how i've thought of him. i can be a real jerk
sometimes. i mean, he's my grandpa ya know... he's gone
through alot, and he is still going through a ton of
things. he deserves to have a better grandaughter then me.
and i hope that i can be better. he isn't going to live
forever.

life is precious, and time that i spend with the people i
love is like diamonds.
jeny




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