Rowan Greene

The Real Diary Of A Made Up Girl
2003-12-01 03:23:59 (UTC)

AAHHGGG!!! Guys Suck!

Ok, I really don't know why it is, against my better
judgement, I always grow attached to guys too quickly. It
is really stupid and I know better, but I do it anyways. I
am so dumb sometimes!
Nothing really huge has happened really. I was supposed
to call that guy I like tonight but so afar have not. The
thing is he is supposed to come online so I know he is
there and it is ok to call and then I can call him. It is
10:18 and he still hasn't come on. Last time he didn't get
on until 9:30 and it was ok to call then, but it is getting
a bit late for calling out on a Sunday night and he hasn't
shown up yet.
It is totally possible that there was an emergency or
someone had to use the phone or something and that is why
he isn't on, but since I don't know that I am getting all
bummed out and all those kinds of things. I really, really
like this guy a lot so I worry that maybe he doesn't like
me back or he is sick of me or something aweful like that.
I really shouldn't think about that stuff, but I do. It
really does raise the stress level a lot trying to build a
relationship.
So unless he shows up soon I am not sure what to do. I
guess I'll send an e-mail saying that since he wasn't on I
didn't know if I should call or not and I will talk to him
later or something like that. I don't want to seem
accusatory or nuts or anything since it is just a phone
call and not really a big deal... but it is bugging me
wicked.
I just have got to stop getting all emotionally caught up
in things and then freaking out the second there seems to
be a little kink in the progress. Most of the time it turns
out to be nothing anyways. I am just freakin' insane! I
start to wonder if I am ever going to get anywhere with
everyone when I get all hurt and upset everytime they don't
get online when I expect them to. This can't be normal I
don't think.
Well, maybe he will come online soon and things will be
ok. I hope.... If he isn't on by 11:30 I am going to bed,
that is it. Not staying up all night for him or anybody.
~*Rowan*~




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