Arwen

Ramble and Babble
2003-11-30 05:23:00 (UTC)

angry hurt now lonly

I am so angry with myself. I am such a loser. went out
last night work function got too drunk made a fool of
myself as usual worried about my friends going off with
guys when they come back tell me to just chill fuck these
days you gotta be so dam careful going off with men. Told
most of the fucking staff I am bisexual even though I am
not sure I am lol fuck my heads a mess my boyfriend made
me angry my best friend is I think avoiding me and hasn't
even sent me an sms today very unusual I think she now
hates me fuck her I spent too much effort on that girl and
shes just using me people were telling me last night she
doesn't care about me she only cares about herself answer
me this! Why am I her friend why!!! I care too much I hate
myself I gotta learn to be more tough I hate myself I
really hate myself for caring as much as I do about people.

Sometimes I just want to curl up and die today is like
that.




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