*BritAmber*

Read, Write, and Remember
2003-11-27 21:39:21 (UTC)

You still have all of me

well, today was thanksgiving. Probably the worst
thanksgiving i've ever had. I miss jake more than anything
today. Everything around me is a reminder of what used to
be, and what will never be again. I miss him more than
anything. I never realized it was going to be this hard

" Real love hurts. Real love makes you totally vulnerable
and open. Real love will take you far beyond yourself.
Therefore, real love will devestate you. If love does not
shatter you, then you do not know love."

I gave jake everything i had to give. Now i have to
figure out how to get my heart back together. There are
pieces jake will always have, but i'm trying to get back
the shattered pieces and be Britly without jake. I wish
the pain would go away. I would give anything to go back
to the way it used to be. When he held me, and we used to
talk about our dreams and our future together. But
now...it's gone.

'After A While'

After a while you learn

The subtle difference

Between holding a hand,

And chaining a soul.

And you learn that love

Doesn't mean leaning,

And company doesn't mean security.


And you begin to learn

That kisses aren't contracts,

And presents aren't promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats

With your head up

And your eyes open,

With the grace of an adult-

Not the greif of a child.

And you begin to learn to

Build all your roads on today

Because tomorrow's ground is

Too uncertain for plans.

And after a while you learn that

Evern sunshine burns

If you get too much.

So plant your own garden and

Decorate your own soul,

Instead of waiting for someone

To bring you flowers.





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