Belleh666

48 shades of darkness
2003-11-26 03:55:51 (UTC)

I AS REFLECT ON ALL THE FUCKING..

I AS REFLECT ON ALL THE FUCKING LIES I SIT AND TRY TO THINK
OF WHY I EVEN CARED ABOUT YOU? AFTER ALL THE SHIT YOU PUT
ME THROUGH AND ALL THE PAIN YOU CAUSED ME, WHY SHOULD I
GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT YOU?IT'S HARD TO SAY WHY BUT I DID AND
STILL DO FOR SOME ODD REASON.SOMEONE JUST PUT ME OUT OF MY
MISERY, TAKE ME OUT OF THIS DARKNESS I SEEM TO EXIST IN DAY
IN AND DAY OUT, SOMEONE BRING ME JOY AND HAPPINESS LIKE I
ONCE HAD AT ONE TIME IN MY LIFE.THESE THOUGHTS OF YOU KEEP
HAUNTING ME IN MY MIND AND IN MY DREAMS, YOU WITH YOUR
NEW "MAN" WHO IS SUPPOSEDLY THE GREATEST FUCKING THING TO
HAPPEN? GEE I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS ME WHO WAS THE GREATEST
THING TO HAPPEN TO YOU? I GUESS I'M JUST NOTHING TO YOU,
NOTHING BUT A STAIN IN YOU PAST, A MEMORY THAT WAS REALLY
NOTHING, A WASTE OF YOUR TIME, A WASTE OF MY TIME! IT MAKES
ME THINK, LOVE WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ANYMORE? JUST A
MEANINGLESS WORD THAT PEOPLE SAY TO FOOL EACH OTHER IN
THINKING THEY CARE? WELL IT SEEMS LIKE YOU NEVER REALLY
CARED NO MATTER HOW MUCH I DID FOR YOU, I'D DO ANYTHING FOR
YOU, BUT YOUR JUST A WORTHLESS SLUT THAT JUST LIKED TO FUCK
AROUND, HURT ME, AND PLAY ME FOR A FOOL. YOU SAID YOU
WEREN'T LYING WHEN YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME AND FELT COMPLETE
WITH ME IN YOUR ARMS? WELL HOW CAN IT BE TRUE WHEN YOU PUT
ME THROUGH HELL? THEY WAY THINGS SEEM TO GO FOR ME, MAKES
ME WONDER IF I'LL EVER FIND TRUE LOVE, THE LOVE I FELT FOR
HER, THAT WAS REAL, AND EVEN THOUGH I FEEL HATE, THE LOVE
STILL LINGERS IN THE HEART THAT IS NOW TURNED BLACK. I
GUESS I'LL HAVE TO TRY AND SURVIVE THIS ONCEC AGAIN, AFTER
ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED THROUGH OUT MY LIFE, I'LL NEVER
FORGET YOU, THE ONE LOVE THAT WAS SO DEEP SO TRUE, BUT TO
BE FRIENDS AND SEE YOU, IS SOMETHING THAT I DON'T THINK
COULD BE. NOW I'LL GO LAY IN MY EMPTY BED, ALONE AND COLD
WISHING THESE FEELING DEAD!