Natalie

Today For You
2003-11-22 16:52:52 (UTC)

Stupid Mothers

i almost started cryin again today. Its just so
weird . LIke i told my mom that i wanted to go to the mall
today cuz there's these huge blanket and i wanted to pick
one out that i like and not one she thought i liked. I
hate that kinda shit. so yeah i told her like Tuesday?
that i wanted to go and shes like all right. So i end up
goin to Alyssa's to spend the night with her and Gabby. I
told my dad to tell her to call me when she got home from
work but she never did. I just called back at the house
and my dad was like she just left a few mins ago to go to
her moms. And besides they were supposed to go somewhere
together. Its not like i mind its not that big of a deal
but it but id be nice if she just remebered me every once
and a while. she just never thinks about anyone and its
not just once or twice its all the time. like when i was
in swing choir in the 6th grade shed always forget about my
concerts and then when i told her she'd be like well i dont
feel like goin have somene walk you over to
Wilson/Navarre/Washington. It just amazizes me how much she
cares about me! Hoe much shes involved with my life. she
never asks me about my day school my frineds or anything
the first thing she does when i come in is bitch at me
about how i didnt put the dishes away or how i need to do
this or whatever and im just like yeah i love you to.
Its just gotten to the point were i lock myself in my
room all day untill she leaves or gos to sleep or whatever
so i dont have to listen to her bitch about every lil
thing. I think Bruces death took a bigger toll on her then
she even admits to herself but damn he was my brother!
liiek i dont have a right to miss him or mourn for him.
She acts like shes the only one who can have a bad day and
yell and scream but if anyone shows any sign of an attiude
oh my God! look out cuz shell bitch at you for havein a bad
day for no reason. shes the only one that gets to have bad
days. well i gotta go.i think im done venting
now...probley not. id go home but i dont wanna see my
mother so ill just have to rough it out here and hope i
dont have a major breakdown because im about any day. i can
just feel it.




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