weezer2080

I'm a girl, not a band!!!
2003-11-22 04:06:18 (UTC)

Spooked

It’s been weird for me. There are these three guys at work
who….well, one asked me out and keeps telling me how good
he is in bed, the other told me I was beautiful (at 6 am)
and then kissed my neck and the third keeps licking my
ear. And while I do appreciate the attention, it’s getting
out of hand. I’ve never had to deal with something like
this before. I’m not...something enough to tell them to
back off. I don’t like being mean. I also know what it’s
like to like someone and not have them feel the same.

It has recently gotten much more...intimate I suppose, and
I can’t just laugh it off anymore. I really don’t like
them touching me. It’s not groping as of yet, but touching
my arm, shoulder, ear, etc. And I’m beginning to get a bit
scared. The other day it was cool outside and I wore a
suede jacket. And one of them kept coming up to “feel”
(read, tight hug) the jacket.

I don’t want to have to censor my choice of clothing
because of how someone else will react to it. And after
what happened before....I am really not in a place that I
want to be. I do know what to do, but I’m so used to being
a doormat that it takes me a bit to become strong enough
to do that.

I’m still kinda scared though.

~L