Angel

DayDream Believer
2003-11-21 19:13:32 (UTC)

Christmas holiday

I just begun my christmas holiday, it feel so waird, I have
neven started so early before, I use to start about the 22.
of December.

The last few weeks has been exhausting, I have been
studying, studying and nothing but studying. I had an exam
on Monday, I was so nervous but it went well, then I had
one at Tuesday I was stil nervous, this one I didnt feel
much prepared for and then I had one Thursday. The first
one is called ex.phil alfa and beta. Its philosophy and
debate. The second was psycology history, called ex.fac and
the thirs one was psychology.
I`ve been reading allmost only psychology, its what im
intrested id, its the most difficult class, its the most
inportant subject I take and I just love-love-love the
book. Ive never had a better book at school before. The
other books we have are okey or pretty bad I think.

First Tuesday we had a multipe choise test on English, its
okey since the book is american. It lasted for one hour, 60
qestions and four alternatives. Then we had three hours to
write to essays. We got three tasks to choose from. One of
them was one I had allready done, so it was perfect, the
other two was memory aspects and inteligens, I choosed
inteligence, it went pretty weel.
I do not expect to get an A, its my first time at
university. And about 50�il this chouse. But I dont think
Im gonna fail, at least not this exsam, maye the ex.phil..

Afther the exam I talked to two others, we were so happy we
were finished, they had done the same tast before (we did
it tougether) but the other task and multiple choise went
bad for bouth. One of them had just realise it was
christmas soon, hehe.
We have been so into studying...

I feelt relif, happy cause I did all tasks on all exams, so
at least I tryed or new something on everything, and I was
glad it was over. It lasted for about one hour, then I
started to feel empty and I stil does one day later..

My life has been so full the last weeks, and now there is
nothing. I had a driverlession today, and Im working
tomorrow and Sunday, on Monday its a fireclass I have to
take if Im going to continue working at the hotel`s, and
then Im buying some gifts. Tuesday Im going to my family
abord, its gonna be great to be there agen.
Im really looking forward to it, Im so tired and need to
relax and do some shopping.

People ask me all the time what Im doing and what I want to
become. I kind of understad them, but they dont get me. Ive
been to school for 12 years before university, 12 years
with people telling me what to learn and what to do.
Now its up to me, Im lerning so much, and I love it, its
not math or homekeeping, its somthing usefull, something I
see its right, not because its in my teachers book, but
bacuse I can see its how the world works.
Sometimes I get up 05.45 and sit in our reading room before
anyone else 07.am, and its bacuse I want to. I go to every
single lecture bacuse I want to and not because they gonna
check if Im there, cause they dont.

Were 1200 students on psycology, and there is 36 who can go
from this couse to the one where you start the letter to
become a doctor. Of couse not everyone want to, but a lot
so its one of the hardest places to get in.
Im not gonna fol myself and belive I`ll walk straigh in,
you need at last two A`s and one B. Thers gonna be about
200 people with that, so they`re gonna use the lottery way
in the end, not fair at all!
Ive never been on university before, Ive mede good graded
and Im made bad grades, it depend much upon if I like the
subject or not.
I used to think that make it the first time was everything
that matter, but last year there was only one who made it
on her first try, the rest hade take some exsmas more than
once.
And it dossnt matter if I use longer time, its whats
normal. I love my life the way it is right now, whit this
education. Its so right for me, and that all I need to
know. Im not a failer if I have to try agen, if that ment
having the same blast as this time, I would love to.

Angel




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