Solace

souless
2003-11-20 03:05:53 (UTC)

Love means always saying your sorry...

So much happened...He came here for my Dad's wedding then I
returned him from whence he came. Dunno what he told the
bleedin' whore but she never told me to hug him for
her...In fact I would be almost certain there was trouble
in paradise...just guessing by sheer feelings... but...

here's what happened...

We belong to this e-group...the one we met in...

he got caught twice with his zipper unzipped in front of
two of my flirty friends who instantly became former
friends...one too shy to continue talking and I know she
backed off the other too much the drunk and druggie to
notice what was going on...hasn't noticed I stopped talking
to her yet...

but the bleedin whore owns the group and conversation picks
up and then dies for months...after I caught him during two
flirtations which he called me crying and saying he was
sorry...I stopped playing so much in there and told him if
he were having internet indiscretions at least keep away
from my girlfriends in group...I cannot blame someone who
lives so far away...I did however caution him not to lead
other ladies on as he could get hurt one day by a looney
out there...

so HE DID STOP and he started having intelligent
conversations with a new member who started out (get this)
39 with a husband and two kids, then she was 27 with no
kids, then she was 22 and merely living in sin, and very
shortly living with her parents at 22 in sin??? come on!
someone is definately fibbing over there...

SOooooo, one day I get on group and lo and behold people
are writing again so I start reading, then all of a
sudden...

She writes into group about how one day if she and MY
SIGNIFICANT INTEREST ever hook up they will have a
relationship success story for the group...

I was sick for about 48 hours but I think what kept me from
withering up dead was the fact the the bleedin whore also
read that and my e server is so slow that I got the news
about 24 hours behind her...so He suffered chestpains and
male castration for a very long time...

He cried and said he would do whatever it took to make
things right between us and I have had enough jealous
anxiety attacks since to believe him this time...


I let him know I have been obsessed with her journal since
and I have read that she was perplexed (poor thing) about
how he dropped her all of a sudden...lets see she could not
eat or sleep for a week and then announces there was a very
good friend she had been talknig to for months that
replaced him on and off cam...so i will believe him...that,
and he calls now, every waking minute he is not in school
or work...and i do know both schedules...He apologized for
calling so much today and I told him I love it and look
forward to his calls...I truley believe he had no idea just
how much he meant to me till I broke down last time...or my
girlfriend (that he met at the wedding)told him off
privately...I have to write this off as he is either a
really bad cheater and once more might just send me packing
or...perhaps it finally impacted him how much I really love
him...He kept calling and telling me all these songs that
made him think of us and what I meant to him...he finally
got the lyrics to my favorite song...he is either the
world's best roleplayer or FINALLY ENLIGHTENED ...he asks
all of the right questions all of a sudden and is actually
stressing about when I get back up there...he asked me on
an official date...not the "two friends going out and
taking the edge off" thing...he wanted to know what to wear
on our date! So I'm impressed for the moment...

and still very much in love...

I can't stop...

I do not want to stop...




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