tbqb12

my stupid mouth
2003-11-18 21:17:58 (UTC)

i told myself so

time for some ranting. grrrrrrrr, sometimes i just want to
hit nick so hard and yell and scream and swear at him. of
course, he'd probably like that. so anyway, lindsay and i
showed jeff and nick this a print-out of this IM
conversation that we had last friday in which we talked
just like they do. we weren't really making fun of them;
that really is how they talk. i guess i expected them to
think it was funny. well, there was also that thought at
the back of my mind that nick would totally flip out and
hate us forever. while he did totally flip out, i don't
think he'll hate us forever. actually, he'd only hate me
forever because, apparently, everything was my fault (even
though he took it out on lindsay). jeff thought it was
really funny. he was laughing a lot. nick, however, went
into his "depressed mode" except that it lasted for way
longer than usual. yeah, it lasted until he somehow
concocted a plan to come to my house today. but, like
everything else, that was also a lie. it's just
frustrating that he can't act more maturely. sometimes, he
really is funny, but there's a time and a place for that,
and after about half an hour, it's not funny anymore. so i
guess i should've known better. geez, if i still liked
jeff it would've been perfect seeing as he thought it was
hilarious. oh man, can you imagine how mad nick would get
if he read that last entry?

i also majorly vented in stats today. i had actually been
considering asking mr. mulcahy what i should do about miss
osepchuk and my french class for awhile now. i knew mr.
mulcahy would at least agree with me somewhat, and i figure
he's been at our school long enough to know how to
successfully handle a situation like this. and i know that
he wouldn't just tell me to "talk to the administration"
because he knows that doesn't work. so he suggested i talk
to miss osepchuk one more time before i go to the head of
the foreign language department. i just can't take it
anymore. usually, i just put up with teachers i can't
stand and just complain to my friends and family about it.
but this is getting ridiculous. we just started chapter 1
and it's mid-november. and we haven't had any tests or
quizzes for weeks. and she never collects the homework, so
no one bothers trying anymore. sure, i like not having to
try hard, but i used to love french, and i really do want
to learn. calculus, on the other hand, i could do without.




Ad: