Belleh666

48 shades of darkness
2003-11-17 23:17:24 (UTC)

I REFLECT ON ALL THE BULLSHIT..

I REFLECT ON ALL THE BULLSHIT AND WONDER WHY I PUT UP WITH
IT."I LOVE YOU" STILL LINGERS IN MY HEAD, BUT WHY CAN'T I
LOOK PAST YOUR LIES, IT'S EVERYTHING I DESPISE,BUT I KNOW
IT CAN'T FADE.THIS LOVE WE MADE CAN'T SEEM TO LET GO, EVEN
THROUGH ALL THE WRONG YOU HAD TO DONE TO ME.YOUR FACE
LEAVES A IMPRINT IN MY MIND,NOW IT SEEMS LIKE A WASTE OF
TIME.HOW CAN I LOVE SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T SEEM TO LOVE ME?
I'M JUST A FOOL JUST FOR BELIEVING, THAT MAYBE IT WAS THE
TRUTH, SOMEONE ACTUALLY MENT IT FOR ONCE? BUT I GUESS I WAS
WRONG LIKE I ALWAYS AM.MEMORIES PASS BUT I STILL CAN'T
GRASP,THIS REALITY THAT HURTS MORE THAN EVER, THIS LOVE SO
TRUE, I CAN'T LET GO, I MUST DEFEAT IT BUT I JUST DON'T
KNOW, HOW CAN I LOVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU, WITH ALL THE SHIT
YOU FED TO ME TRY TO MAKE ME BELIEVE, TRY TO MAKE ME SEE
INTO YOUR LIES, I DID AND IT'S ME I DESPISE.ALL THESE CRIES
I SCREAM INSIDE, PIAN I TRY AND HIDE, TRY TO SWALLOW BUT
CAN'T GET IT DOWN,MENTALLY FUCKED WITH YOU ON MY MIND.LOST
SELF CONTROL AND LET YOU IN, TO WORK THINGS OUT, I SHOULD
HAVE KNOWN YOUR WERE PLAYIN, TAKEN ME FOR A FOOL ONCE
AGAIN, GOD I HATE THIS! I CAN'T PRETEND TO GO ON WITH A
FAKE SMILE, ACT LIKE IT DON'T MATTER, BUT IT'S THE ONLY WAY
TO MAKE IT SEEM LIKE EVERY THINGS OK, EVEN THOUGH IT WILL
NEVER BE!