Nicole

~Lost in Darkness~
2003-11-16 19:44:18 (UTC)

1st Step in Saying Goodbye

Since the day i met him, i wanted him to be mine. Now that
hes mine i dont want to say goodbye. Ive been terrified of
loosing him since we got together. Now it seems God is
bracing me for the final blow by putting smaller ones in my
path. Not small, or they dont seem small at all. I just got
off the phone with Brian about a half an hour ago.
Apparentlly Lisa wants him at Phibs. Not only that, she
wants him as matientce manager. As his friend, i rejoice
for him, its a great oppertunit. However as his girlfriend,
im devistated. What a change this is going to cause. Hell
be working alot more hours, for more money, yes but hes
also going to be going straight from work to school. Any
chance of me seeing him is only going to be on the
weekends. Then how often do our scheduales line up now?
Hardley, and proablly less with him at a diffrent theater.
I just hope i stop crying in time for my face to un-swell
by the time i go into work today. I dont want to faced with
questions. That never helps.




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