sweetaddiction

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2003-11-12 04:18:22 (UTC)

there are times when i miss my..

there are times when i miss my parents so much. my family.
i miss being a family. i miss being at home. the way daddy
would curl up his pillow. and sing me songs until i fell
asleep. i miss my childhood. im not ready to let go of it,
and be the woman that i now am. i miss it so much. i just
want to be at home and hear my mommy tell me that she
lovesme, that everything will be okay. and that im a good
girl....i miss daddy. i miss before he found out i was
gay....before all of the bullshit that that brought into
our family. i miss my grandfather. more than words can
ever express. i miss disney and i miss holding his hand
and looking into his bright blue big eyes and listening to
his stories....i cant believe hes gone. i miss orlando. i
miss my home. i dont belong here. i dont like it here. i
just want to go home. i want to be 8 again. ride
rollerblades and sit on those brown couches in my old
house and wake everyone up early for christmas. my
birthday is in two days. in two days i will be twenty
years old. no longer a teenager. no longer a girl....im
not ready for this....i want it all back so much....i miss
them....




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