2003-11-11 02:52:26 (UTC)

love is what makes you smile when youre tired.

When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and
little stars come out of you

I think I'm going to be a teacher instead. I was thinking
about that today.

That is, if I EVER WRITE THIS FUCKING PAPER. I dont know
what my problem is with it. I have like 200 words and I
need 2000 on Thursday morning. UGGGHHH

I'm so so excited about going to indiana in a couple of
weeks. i love just being with them laying around the house
and doing the snuggle-train and watching movies and playing
chess with cole and giving madi makeovers. the last time i
felt the most loved was when we were all in the car on our
way back from the fireworks and cole was sleeping on my lap
and madi said "you're my best friend" and laid her head on
my shoulder and i thought, this is what its all about. i
love those kids more than anything.

i dont know what shes doing. she got bit by a spider at
work the other day and her whole leg is swollen up and
spiders apparently eat your flesh from the inside out to
the bone or some disgustingness like that but she doesnt
have enough money to pay her insurance so she can go to the
doctor and i fucking told her 4 hours ago to come over and
i would give her the money and i transferred it from my
savings to checking and shes not coming, this is not a time
to be too proud or embarrassed or whatever the fuck, she
needs to go to the doctor this is ridiculous. im irritated.

I'm going to be SO productive tomorrow, I swear.

I say I dont care, I just run my hands through her dark
hair and I pray to God, you gotta help me fly away

Last nite I tried to leave
She cried so much I just could not believe
she was the same girl I fell in love with long ago

And just let her cry, if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing,if it eases all her pain
Let her go, let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be, let her be.