babybritt_4life

My Crazy Mixed Up World * A Girl In Love
2003-11-11 01:58:59 (UTC)

trust

okay so i was happy yesterday but now i'm not happy. not
happy at all. i'm starting to be tested. i'm trying to
make myself not to look at guys as much. well the one guy
have liked since like 7th came up and was hanging out with
us today. he always makes me smile and its hard for me not
to get all crazy when he is around. well since this my bf
asked me out i have made up my mind that i'm not going to
mess it up. so i think i did really good. i did my best
and i didn't do my mom little flirting thing i always do
with him. and i'm very happy with my self. well that was
a big test. but thats not the reason i'm not happy. the
reason does have to do with my bf. he does live in a
different state. because of that some of my friends are
like how can you trust him. don't you think he is tryin to
get with other girls. well i always thought i could trust
him. i still think so. but people are tryin to make me
doubt. and at times i think its working. i mean i don't
know what is going on there. i don't know if some
wonderful girl is going to come into his life and if he
will fall for her. i guess i'm just going to have to trust
him. which would be a lot better if people wouldn't say
these things to me. i don't know what is going to happen.
well i guess i will go write more poems. that seems to
really help. t2ul.

love britty




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