weezer2080

Pissing Matches

Well.

Last night I got into a "fight", kinda, with my best
friend. And it turned out to be one of the most honest
conversations we've had in years. It seems that we tiptoe
around other people, even those we love, and just try not
to make waves.

But what's wrong with waves sometimes? You get wet. That's
pretty much it. She and I haven't had such a real
conversation since eight grade. I'm not sure where the
deep sharing part disintigrated, but that doesn't matter
now. We are still friends, and love each other. Yet, it's
odd. How well do we really know those around us?

There is so much about people that I care about that I
don't know. I respect that they don't want to talk about
whatever it is, but then....well, a relationship is give
and take. It's hard being the giver all the time.

I'm not sure which stance I want to take. Do I pry (the
results of which I know are bad) or not pry and stay in
the dark? The dark is soothing, comforting, safe. But it's
also confining and lonely.

I don't know. Again, I'm up against what I want, and I'm
not sure what that is.

Maybe the lunar eclipse will help.

~L